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Title: try my love
Disclaimer: nothing belongs to me but the story.
Genre: dude, idk this is some happy shit xDD
Pairing: Kaoru/Toshiya
Rating: G
Words Count: 524
Summary: "i want to kiss you."
Comments: hi~ this is my new writing account/community!! join if you like what you read:P

also this is very random and ugh, i have no idea.

dedicated to

sick_pride just because. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

this, picking randomly one of the million adjectives that could be used to describe this very situation, is at least, wrong. i'm not supposed to think like this, I know I'm not, but I swear I just can't help myself... I know that a fan meeting, with a singing event isn't the best place to start thinking about how beautiful you look, lately (have i told you this? please remind me to do it often, because i can write books about how absolutely precious you are, how your hair falls right in the best spot, how masculine, raw and defined your jaw is); that definitely i shouldn't be thinking about how much i love the new fragrance are you using lately (didn't i tell you about this, either? i like this one much more than the last one); and, definitely; i shouldn't be thinking about how much i want to--

"i want to kiss you." and my voice is low, very low, only meant for you to hear it. and when i'm done saying that, i nod at the girl that i have in front of me who looks like is close to have a heart attack just because isn't-that-toshiya-from-oh-my-god-dir-en-grey-in-front-of-me? i smile a few times and grab my pen again to sign to the next girl, and then i hear you chuckle. it's soft, but still dark and rough and... it's you.

"you and that big mouth of yours." you comment back, not even looking at me, just muttering those words so i could hear them and paying attention to the girl in front of you, and you suddenly smile and.... ugh, god i just want to kiss you so bad.

i let out a small giggle and i can hear how the girl in front of me starts squeeing, and i can't help but giggle again if she knew the reasons of all my giggling. i sign, and hand her poster with both hands, and a broadly smile. i love you (did i tell you that lately? i should, i really should.) "you love it, and you know it."
you let out another chuckle, this time louder and i let out a giggle and then the suddenly band is staring at us like 'what the fuck are you guys doing' and nora is just staring at us with raising eyebrows and...god i just love you so much.
"you do!" i hiss, under my breath and this time instead of chuckling, and giggling and more confusion to our band mates and the poor, poor new yorker girls who stare at us like we have lost our minds, you kick me, under the table.

"you will see, you..." you start, your voice raspy but with a hint of tease that makes me want just to forget where we are, and what we are and just put my head on your shoulder and get overwhelmed by your fragrance an-- "i want to kiss you too." you finally say, when the last girl shows up and i just can't help but have the biggest and silliest smile on my face, ever... because, you. it's all about you.

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You wouldn't believe how much this cheer me up. You would not believe.

THIS, dear, THIS. This makes me smile and I swear: I hadn't smile all day long. But finally you were able to brighten my mood because THIS was so KT, so much love, so much meaning in it, so much happiness and so much... yeah, just so much KT like I love them.

i love you (did i tell you that lately? i should, i really should.) ... dear, with this, you made me happy. So Toshiya-like. Gods, I love it. I really do.

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i'm glad it did, really, i'm so glad.

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i love it ♥ so sweet and it's so much like them. And awesome explanation for Kaoru's wide smile ♥

i'm so glad you do baby. ♥

*added to memories*

There are so many things I LOVED to this sweet snippet. From the stream of consciousness, to the unprepared surprises (for us, as readers) in Toshiya's words:

and, definitely; i shouldn't be thinking about how much i want to--

"i want to kiss you." and my voice is low, very low, only meant for you to hear it.

The KT dynamics are GOLD and totally like them, Kaoru keeping his composure and keeping it cool while Toshiya gets more passionate and passionate and cute :) SERIOUSLY! This drabble was such a lovely and creative way to imprint more the NY signing and to give it meaning, LOTS of meanings :) And now I'll seriously not be able to forget this moment - although there was no doubt I would have ;P, but yeah :)

...and I like the way Kaoru gives in in the end. Although "giving in" are not the right words...he's more like...honest, yeah, finally honest with himself and like finally dropping part of his mask, because Toshiya usually has this impact on him :) he makes him say things he usually doesn't and to put aside for a moment notions like maturity and "things we don't need to say one to another because we're both mature and guys" lool

"you will see, you..." you start, your voice raspy but with a hint of tease that makes me want just to forget where we are, and what we are and just put my head on your shoulder and get overwhelmed by your fragrance an-- "i want to kiss you too." you finally say, when the last girl shows up and i just can't help but have the biggest and silliest smile on my face, ever... because, you. it's all about you.

Although Kaoru is A LOT more colder about his feelings and talking about them than Toshiya is, just as Kyo noted in a n interview and said how well guarded Kaoru actually is, I like to see him like this. I like to see him comfortable in his emotions and not being afraid. And I know he's like this only because of Toshiya and that makes me MORE than happy and fuzzy inside.

yeah...I think I spoke enough already, haha :)

ugh you have no idea how much i love your long and detailed comments. ♥

i wanted to do something real (with the fiction that is imagining them together) and i wanted to do something like this, a dinamic of toshiya being a bit childish, a bit teasing while kaoru doesn't want or tries not to give up against it.

i'm so glad you liked it really.

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*smiles* I believe in long comments and being a writer myself I KNOW HOW MUCH OF AN IMPACT THOSE HAVE :) and I know how these kind of comments actually make us go on and get more excited into writing another thing, and another thing, and maybe try that too, or the other and so on :) I also like to think I'm giving a public example to the lurkers ou there to come up and do comments as I'm doing as in fact it's not really hard. I know that same people might feel unable to express themselves the way they would like to and express what they feel when reading x or y, but there are always forms of saying "I really, REALLY liked this". It could be around "I was drinking my morning coffee and smoking my favorite cigarette and reading your fic totally made my day and made me think of my favorite pairing and made me FEEL them more and I maybe could have left another good comment, but this is the best I could give and...yeah :)"

i wanted to do something real (with the fiction that is imagining them together)

And you TOTALLY managed to do it. Mingling real events with DEG and fiction IS always effective. That's why I ALWAYS admired

life_giver and she's still my #1 writer, because she did EXACTLY that. She mingled these two worlds, of reality and fiction SO GOOD that her chaptered fic for me actually was THE STORY, the story of KT. By the end of it I was like: "THAT'S EXACTLY HOW IT HAPPENED!" :)

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thank you so much again, really, for taking the time of read my fics and then spending some time writing such long and sweet comments, i really appreciate it.

and i try to do it everytime i write, i usually get 'inspired' by real events and i would like to make them real.
and

life_giver's fic was absolutely brilliant, i wish she could write more. :/

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and life_giver's fic was absolutely brilliant, i wish she could write more. :/

:( I know. Me too. Unfortunately this is very unlikely...She shifted a lot towards the Gazette fandom + I know she's busy. Some good months ago I PMed her with a heavy message then left her some more here and there, asking about the possibility of her writing any more KT. She said that yeah, she'd like that, but that she's really busy nowadays.

...and I suppose the same thing goes with

beautifulshade/

perfect_enigma. I haven't saw anything from her in a while and truthfully I think she migrated to another fandom or is simply busy...yeah...I wish...I wish I could see new authors arising, you know?

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i loved this so fuckin much. the BANTER the playful banter that i associate with them. and the fragrance. and the details and the love fvdgbuj hgjshjswtkryw

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keysmashing hell yeah :3

thank you so much omg.
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aaaw... my heart is beating mad! this is sooo gorgeous! it's silly but i feel like crying. really. how i love kxt.... keep it up! u shud dedicate more stories to sick_pride if this will be the end result. ^_______^

*laugh*
i'm so hapy to read this, and i've already dedicated a few so i guess i will go on with it. ♥

thanks for the sweet comment.

AHAHAHAHAHAH! SOMEBODY FINALLY SAID IT! HAHA! I TOTALLY FEEL THE SAME ;P AND I ALSO WOULD HAVE WANTED TO "IMPLY" HER THAT BUT I WAS TOO EMBARRASSED THINKING I MUST BE LOOKING TOO GREEDY, HAHA :) but thank you for speaking up also for me ;)

hahaha, you guys are crazy! :) *hugs all of you*

haha, and you're being cute! :) *hugs back*